I filmed as I walked home on the dark unfamiliar streets with no cars in sight. Doing this actually caused me to walk in completely the wrong direction. When I eventually arrived home, I turned on Kol Nidre, and I broke down in a way I have done many, many times - but for the first time in a long time, and only about my mother. I could feel her presence deeply - and her lack of presence - and I allowed my many questions for her that have burned my soul for more than a deca